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kairee User: ~kairee
Age: 20
About Kairee: People already know everything they need to know about me. Well, I love to bite people. And I'm one frustrated J-Rock vocalist (because I don't have a band). If you're interested in recruiting me, please lemme know. Hahah. *skips away*
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Designer: john_25
About the Template: The Jawn and his Table ft. Cloud Strife is the third in the Jawn's Table series, wherein the "table surface" pattern used was uniform to all the versions in the entire theme. The color scheme used was black and silver. The objects embedded in the layout only had shadow blending effects to make them look as if they are laid on the table--and just like the rest in the series, it features a certain anime character, which is obviously Cloud Strife from FFVII for this version. ^^
Entry of the Month
Songs are Meant to be Sungby buchi
[About the Entry: Ahhh. Yung entry. That was a story to be submitted para sa Litt subject ko. Ang ending nya ay tragedy kasi at that moment, medyo malungkot ako. Hehehe. Newbie lang ako sa pagsusulat kaya hindi siya "extraordinary" story. LOL. Salamat ke kairee sa pagnominate. Nakakahiya. Wakokok. ^^]
Small talks and the smell of coffee fill the air as I enter the cafe. The usual faces of the crew greeted me as I entered, and I gave them recognition by nodding my head and giving a smile.
"This way sir, for two I guess?" the friendly waiter asked.
"Yes, we'll be meeting here... again,"
They knew who I am talking about coz we love having coffee breaks in that particular place.
"The same?" he inquired
"Yes, and a carrot cake."
I seldom order cakes because it contains too much sugar that I believe lessens my life two days in each bite but she just laughs whenever we argue about that. A smile crossed my face. Just thinking about the little things that she does makes me happy and I wonder if I'm demented or crazy. Maybe crazy in love, yes, but then we still have a lot of things to do, dreams to make and achieve. And I promised that to her when we lie next to each other watching the starry sky.
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There's a very high probability that I'm going to spend my birthday at home and alone. Hmpf, that's just sad.
magkatotoo nga kaya ito??
hindi ako pinapayagang mag-overnight sa pilipinas
pero pinapayagan akong lumabas ng bansa nang mag-isa or kahit may kasama--na friends?
HAHAHA..
theory to law in the family?
we'll see in a little while.
Dr. Ortill
Ganyan talaga kapag naka-anesthesia, nakakaramdam pero, hindi masakit.
And I was there, assisting in her lumpectomy, looking at bloody flesh, and inhaling the smoke from her cautery while my elbows were complaining from retracting, wishing that someone could inject me with just a vial of Lidocaine. Not from the physical pain but from the pointy feeling inside.
How avoidant.
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It's been 23 days in my rotation, and FINALLY I had been able to assist at a major o.r....an Appendectomy. I can still remember how it is done. I insisted on scrubbing in on this one, just to see their technique. Pretty cool. I wish I could do one.
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Can this be?
Our radiologists can't explain it. And my groupmate says, the child was not held by anyone while the x-ray was taken. Even so, it would not form a hand.. but will show the bones. (scary music here.)
I saw New Moon today with Gatch in G4. It's actually the 41st movie I've seen this year and, frankly, one of the lamest. A total snoozefest. This Twilight sequel still fails as a vampire and a love story. And I'm hating the fact that they sparkle in the sunlight more and more. I think the only good thing about this film is Dakota Fanning.
I give up on this saga. I'm probably not going to watch the next ones.
I should be preparing my stuff for the three-day retreat. I already fixed my closet.. I organized my clothes and stuff. I couldn't decide on what to bring. It's Tagaytay, I know, but I want to wear something sleeveless then have some jacket over. I'm going to bring an extra pair of shoes and rubber slippers. Socks = must. I cannot survive if my feet are exposed to low temperature. I love the cold but.. cold feet? :3
Important thing that I should bring? My medicine pouch containing iron supplements and Advil. Seriously, if I get a headache, all hell will break loose. I don't like events with crowds, que horror.
I am trying not to panic. My thesis is.. zero. Nothing is happening. It feels like I'm the only one with thesis in mind. I guess, it's time for me to step-up.. :/
Oh dear. Downstairs, my sister is teasing our kid brother. Kiddie crush thing is cute but..
Nothing makes a day faster than looking forward to something. And today, what put me through the first half of my day was the fact that me and my friends went out tonight.
This get together was for Joie. To cheer her up from her recent breakup after a 5 year relationship. We (Andrea, Andrew, King, Neli, Joie and I) met up at Rob and had dinner at Don Henrico's, remembering our clerkship experiences. That was the time when we were still students, and from there started comparing our internships at different hospitals. We had a hearty meal, and I felt at home, reconnecting with those I shared a wonderful 4 years of medicine proper with.
After that, we walked to a Karaoke Bar where we sang a mix of vengeful and sentimental songs for Joie. Some, for me. For them, too. I was tipsy and having so much fun, fun, fun, when..
He texted. He says he wants to die. He says I hurt him too much.
It's not the first time he's said that. He does it when I don't text or answer his calls or when I tell him that I don't feel the same. But now, I don't even know what I've done. I was always upfront and honest. And I did try to like him. I tried so hard, that I even DID like him. And he even thought I loved him back already. But it's not enough..
Because I knew the difference when I fell for somebody (who betrayed me instead). Argh. I am being played and twisted by fate.
It's good that work takes so much out of my mind. The brain can only do one thing at a time, and it helps to keep focus on what's in front. In a few hours time, I'll be on track a 32 hour tour of duty, mending other people's bodies when I am so...broken inside.
Pag nasa taas ka ng gulong, ang boring ng buhay. puro temporary happiness. nakaka-high sa simula. sa bandang gitna, wala na yung magic ng mga bagay-bagay. sa dulo, wala ng dating.
pag nasa baba ka naman ng gulong, sobrang exciting naman ng buhay mo to the point na nababaliw ka na at nagkakaugaga sa gulo.
pero, kahit san ka man mapunta, lahat may magandang nadudulot.
pag nasa itaas ka, narerealize mo yung mga maliliit na bagay na importante sayo. maliliit na bagay in a sense na, kaya mong mabuhay kahit wala sila pero dahil nakukuha mo sila, nalalaman mong swerte ka.
pag nasa ibaba ka naman, narerealize mo yung mga bagay na napakaimportante sa buhay mo. mga bagay na, di mo kayang mawala. na mawawala na yung sense ng buhay mo pag nawala ang mga ito.
pag nasa itaas ka, nawawala ang mga priorities mo nang panandalian. nawawala ka. nalulunod ka sa mga bagay-bagay na akala mo nakakapagpasaya sayo. pero lahat ng yon, di nagtatagal. nakakasawa lang at nakakapagod pagtagal na pag dumating ka na sa point ng tamang oras, wala ng spark.
pag nasa ibaba ka naman, alam mo kung ano ang priorities mo. mahirap lang magbalanse dahil madalas na hindi nabibigyan ng pagkakataon, o ang pagkakataon ang nagkakait sayo ng diretsong sagot.
naisip ko ulit kanina, maswerte ako. kasi kahit papano, nararanasan ko mabuhay sa parehong mundo. though in a different sense nanaman ito.
alam ko yung feeling ng deprived at ng privileged; yung maging katulong at maging prinsesa; kulang at sobra; at oo at hindi.
hindi ko man maexperience yung ends nung both worlds, at least nakaapak ako sa state ng dalawang mundo, kahit sa patikim lang.
career state, wala paring progress ang buhay ko. bente dos na ko, di ko pa rin alam kung ano ba ang gusto kong gawin sa buhay ko. may idea naman ako ng gustong kong gawin, malayo lang siya sa state ng buhay ko.
para akong nawawala sa mundong alam kong may option pero walang choice mamili ng option. tipong torn dun sa buhay na gusto kong gawin at sa buhay na pinapangarap para sakin. yung buhay na madaling sabihin na dapat sundin mo yung gusto mo dahil ikaw ang nasa driver seat, kaso, yung kasama mo sa passenger seat na nagturo sayo kung pano magmaneho eh ibang istilo ang tinuturo.
gusto mong gawin yung gusto mo, pero may utang na loob ka sa magulang mo. gusto mo maging masaya, pero gusto mo rin silang maging masaya.
kaso, kahit na ipilit ko sa daan na gusto kong puntahan, yung daan na gusto ko, magulo--walang plano, walang malinaw na pangarap, walang kabuuan. pero yung pinipiling daan ng magulan mo, nakikita mo hanggang dulo kung ano yung kahihinatnan--malinaw, may direction at may kabuluhan.
ang nakakatakot na lang, pano kung dumating sa punto na andun ka na sa lugar na may kabuluhan, maramdaman mo pa kayang may kabuluhan ang lahat? kung ang sarili mong pangarap, di mo natupad?
madali sana ang buhay kung lahat ng bagay, kailangan paghirapan na may kasiguraduhang may kahihinatnan. kaso kailan ba gumana ang buhay ng ganon?
Still no meteors flashing my way. Only navy blue clouds on an ebony sky. Oh well.
We had a short day at the hospital, there was a mandatory stay-at-the-library memo for all the interns. And so, we sort of had a free duty. I'm happy because we didn't work as hard today, and sad because I didn't have any patients to learn from.
And because I was tired of reading the medical stuff, I took a break and scanned the newspaper. A sociopolitical events expert, I am not. But somehow, I just want to speak out what I was thinking.
Pacquiao fever. Pacquaio in politics.
(Nah. He lost the elections last time, despite his boxing feats. We have become aware that the on-screen champions are a different story when it comes to politics.)
Pacquiao vs. Mayweather
(Lose-lose scenario for Pacquiao. If he says no, Mayweather will have bragging rights. If Pacquiao fights, he'd better win big time, or it'll be the end of his boxing glory)
Manny Villar and Loren Legarda, runningmates...
(Which just ruins their credibility. Manny using Loren's good reputation, and Loren using Manny for his well-oiled campaign machinery. Good luck to both.)
Hacienda Luisita.
(Has gone on long enough. It breaks my spirit to see the plight of the poor, the greed of the rich, and our sick legal system.)
Pacquiao and Jinky fighting due to Krista Ranillo...
(Typical. A full blown disaster.Let them fix it up, and stop the slandering. They are people after all, and no family is ever the cleaner.)
Edu Manzano, running for vice president.
(Game ka na ba? Kami, hindi.)
3 killed and 7 injured at Pasay demolition...
(Why use guns? WHY?! Of course they would protect the mosque, it is their place of worship. A little respect for their religion! There could have been a better way to do it. No wonder some Muslims would think badly about the government. Why fuel their agitation? Why? WHY?!)
New Moon, now showing.
(And dateless. moving on...)
Efren Penaflorida, the CNN hero...
(He's such an inspiration. With him and his group around, there is hope for this nation. WE CAN DO SOMETHING FOR OTHERS IF WE WANTED TO. I wish that aside from voting for him, we would also be encouraged to help the less fortunate. But first of all, let's vote. He deserves to win.)
Now on to the news of my life. I'm learning that some people have interesting stories to tell about their lives. And I am amazed to find out. But amidst all the sharing, I'm still keeping much a secret, sorting is still to be done with my baggages.