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About Kairee: People already know everything they need to know about me. Well, I love to bite people. And I'm one frustrated J-Rock vocalist (because I don't have a band). If you're interested in recruiting me, please lemme know. Hahah. *skips away*
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About the Template: The Jawn and his Table ft. Cloud Strife is the third in the Jawn's Table series, wherein the "table surface" pattern used was uniform to all the versions in the entire theme. The color scheme used was black and silver. The objects embedded in the layout only had shadow blending effects to make them look as if they are laid on the table--and just like the rest in the series, it features a certain anime character, which is obviously Cloud Strife from FFVII for this version. ^^
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Songs are Meant to be Sungby buchi
[About the Entry: Ahhh. Yung entry. That was a story to be submitted para sa Litt subject ko. Ang ending nya ay tragedy kasi at that moment, medyo malungkot ako. Hehehe. Newbie lang ako sa pagsusulat kaya hindi siya "extraordinary" story. LOL. Salamat ke kairee sa pagnominate. Nakakahiya. Wakokok. ^^]
Small talks and the smell of coffee fill the air as I enter the cafe. The usual faces of the crew greeted me as I entered, and I gave them recognition by nodding my head and giving a smile.
"This way sir, for two I guess?" the friendly waiter asked.
"Yes, we'll be meeting here... again,"
They knew who I am talking about coz we love having coffee breaks in that particular place.
"The same?" he inquired
"Yes, and a carrot cake."
I seldom order cakes because it contains too much sugar that I believe lessens my life two days in each bite but she just laughs whenever we argue about that. A smile crossed my face. Just thinking about the little things that she does makes me happy and I wonder if I'm demented or crazy. Maybe crazy in love, yes, but then we still have a lot of things to do, dreams to make and achieve. And I promised that to her when we lie next to each other watching the starry sky.
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Am I scared? That was what I asked myself when I attended the grad school orientation earlier today. The academic atmosphere never bothers me at all, but there's this apprehension which almost relentlessly snaked up my spine for some galactical reason. Unfamiliar territory, I guess. Or, maybe, the people. I would expect that the people there are academically brilliant; it's The University of All Universities in the country, anyway. So am I troubled about not being able to keep up? Probably. But I so damn know myself. I am over that stage, and I don't intend to make a trip back to the yesteryears of my academic insecurity. Nevertheless, I can't deny that I am a bit apprehensive. I just can tell. However, I know that the paths would never have led me to what I am about to pursue now if this dream were not meant for me.
I would just consider this one of the birth pains.
This is it.
okay okay okay ryan.
time to take a step back and remember where you're standing.
the thing about being too close is you forget to look at the bigger picture. but this isn't me saying i'm starting to have baseless hopes again. all i'm saying is that this is giving me reasonable doubts of how unmalicious i am currently seeing things. because you know, good intent is sometimes laced with malicious actions - conscious or not.
so i was watching a how-i-met-your-mother episode a couple of days back. i'm not an avid fan but i do like watching it when i get the chance to. it was that episode when ted asked robin if there's something that's ever gonna come out of their situation. if she loved him. of course i wouldn't know how many times in the series this question has been thrown out there. but given the limited number of episodes i've seen, i'm taking it as the first. anyway. my point is, you really just have to put it out there. sometimes it's a world of difference between knowing it and hearing it. it's a different sense of finality when you fill the thoughts out with actual words. no better way than through. you're better off knowing it early on.
so. this doesn't exactly relate to what my point was. but i guess i wanted to say that when you're the ted that's been robin-ed, you gotta call it quits. i guess the problem is knowing when you've been robin-ed. or making an avenue to find out if you'll be robin-ed or not. in light of recent events, i wouldn't say i've been robin-ed. i mean, you can't break off something that hasn't exactly started. but then you gotta know when to call it quits. and you know, you can't forever be hanging around thinking of what could possibly happen. the unending what-if's and what-could-be's.
the episode ended with marshall kicking robin out.
question is, when (and how exactly) do you kick your robin out?
when do you do something about proximity to make sure it doesn't compromise your plight for being platonic? because after all, we all say we're better off friends than nothing. but do you really have to do something about proximity? when do you say something has to be done? and is this ultimately fair?
i'm at that point where i can say i'm yet to be emotionally compromised. i have my delusional hopes tucked in waaay far where it's supposed to be. but i can see that i'm dangerously straddling a fine line between two things i'm not yet sure of. i know i'm fencing over something. i'm just not sure what. i mean, i'm pretty resolved with the fact that nothing's ever gonna come out of this. so i'm quite sure i'm not hoping. but yeah, there's something. that i'll have to figure out.
i'll have to qualify better the things that are happening lately. aka weed everything out for any possibilities of intent from the other end. yes. everything. it's simpler that way.
...
and yes, this is happening on top of the insanity that is work lately.
another entry another draft 
I was able to watch this movie again, thanks again to my friend Con who lent me her copy for the 2nd time.
It's been a long time since I last watched this movie. I had my first review about if dated way back last Feb 21, 2007! So I'm here again to rewrite a review. I wanted to compare if my review before and now would differ.
Well, you see, I was a big fan (and still today) of Prince of Tennis the anime. So when I first heard about this movie you couldn't imagine how excited I was. I watched the trailer over and over again and even saved it in my phone. Gah. My phone was so low-tech back then that's why I recorded the trailer from a computer using the video lens of my phone. yeah, everytime I have a break at work, even when going to the bathroom I watch the trailer! Seriously! Proff of my fondess with the trailer alone was that when I watched the movie again just this morning, I still remember the lines in the trailer. Hahaha! Especially when Ryoma said "motto motto". Hahaha!
Mahn, how I loved Shirota Yuu that time. Him being Tezuka was super perfect for me! Made me realize that men that looked like anime characters do exist. My dream about them is still not shattered. Hahahaha!
Ok before this gets too long let me go on with my revised review.
After watching this movie again I now realized that this movie is...
ONE BIG CRAPPY MOVIE!!!!!!!
Hold your horses! Wait for me to finish my review! Watching it again made me realize a lot of negative things about it. Well, it's normal with movies that have stories based on books, so basing it from anime is no different. You have one movie around 2 hours versus an anime saga that lasted around 100 episodes or so (I forgot how many episode tenipuri has, a hundred?). That likes 2 hours versus 2000 hours. What do you get? A super chop-chop movie.
But the first thing I realized was the editing of the movie. You see the pacing from one setting to another was the crappiest thing I saw. I am no movie pro but as a viewer I think the pacing was just too fast. Not surprised as I have explained earlier. I think you call that cinematography huh? But still, they could have done something with the transition? I dunno what the new people will say about it. Fans who really know the story will know what was chopped off. But I wonder how a new person viewing Tenipuri in this state will say?
Don't tell me they didn't have a big budget for this! They had Yonex and Fila plasted on the things of the Seigaku regulars. Ok not plasted, they were sponsored. So duh, there should be enough funds.
Background music was lacking too. There were lots of quiet moments. Why didn't they just use the background music from the anime. LOL
I have something to say about the characterization too. Most characters did not have enough time to build up within the movie. Well, I explained already why. But still, it just makes me sad. Some weren't given much importance too just like Ryuzaki-sensei! Okay she is a younger version, but her role is still vital to the team. We didn't even see her seat beside the court when the match against Hyotei started! Ugh!
Tezuka, as I have said earlier was perfect for me. No complains about him. He really has that Tezuka-aura! The looks and all! Haha! Ryoma-kun well, I had doubts about him but it turned out that Kanata Hongou did well. He has that Ryoma angst in him. The way he plays is not that pleasing to the eyes though. Well what do I expect? Well, for me he was good as Ryoma. Hiroki Aiba has always been a perfect Fuji for me. So I won't say anything more. The cute guy playing Kikumaru has the perfect looks but lacked the genki-genki mode of Kikumaru. Well, maybe the directors wanted him to be a tougher in this movie. But we still see him cry though. Oishi...well his looks aren't that bad but he does not have that fukubuchou vibe. Sorry. Kawamura was perfect for me too. They didn't actually show how his personality changes when holding a racket and not. But oh well he's fine as Seigaku's power player. The one who acted as Momo...sorry. You don't really have that Momo-chan vibe. The Momo-chan from the 1st Gen of Tenimyu was perfect though. The one playing Kaidoh did not have the perfect looks, but I admire how he had that Kaidoh fierceness in him. As for our Data Tennis player Inui, sorry...you too. You don't have the aura of the Inui juice maker. But it was funny to see him drink his own juice. That cracked me up! Hahahaha! The actor who played Nanjiroh was really a veteran. He played in character. he might look older that how Nanjiroh looks like but he did his acting job well.
I just wished they had Sakuno instead of Shion. And her brother. Ugh. Those weren't really necessary characters. They could have twisted the story with the same set of characters.
So I therefore conclude that this movie is reallyy for eye-candy purposes. For the fans who want to see their favorite characters come alive. But to expect it as a good movie storywise? Needs improvement.
But heck...I think I'll watch this again after a while. Haha!
Mada mada da ne!
I know how good this movie was, but I was just able to have a chance to watch it a while ago. It's so cute!!!!! The most catch one would be the house with a hundred of colorful balloons. That was pleasing to the eyes. It made amends for the unusual protagonist this movie has. Yeah you have an old man here going on an adventure! But heck, his character was heroic by the end. Grandpas rule!!!
Rusell was the cutest chubby boy ever! He's such a darling! The voice actor really did a good job. And of course the animator for him! Dug the talking dog was loveable too! I want a chubby and short dog! Oh well, I love our dog Fuji even though he is the opposite. Kevin the female bird was so pretty too.
Well the main motto for this movie was "Adventure is out there!" Yeah, I should emulate Mr. Fredicksen and go on an adventure myself. Adventure has no limitations, whether you a re a kid, a dog, a bird or an old man. All of us should really get out of our comfort zone. I should really keep that in mind! ^^ So help me God.
So heartwarming to know that Mr. Fredricksen was able to keep his promise to his loving wife. Awwwwww!!!
I was shaking after reading the email sent to me by the Most Prestigious, if not, One of the Two More Prestigious Universities in the country. Then for a moment, it felt surreal.
Truth: I've always wanted to study in that school. There was even an attempt to transfer to that school during college but it didn't prosper due to practical reasons. Several times the guilt of not even trying my chance in that glorious a university right after high school haunted me like nightmares.
But that's all behind me now. The elusiveness of what was thought impossible has been defied; I am getting ready for grad school!
I am just happy.
Ano ba naman bat d mo pa sagutin
Onti onti mo kong pinag-iisip
Nagaalala na ko
Kanina pa tayo huling nag-usap
Napupudpod na ang daliri ko
Sa kakadial ng telepono
Kahit isa man lang sa 50 tawag ko sana sinagot mo
Ano bas a tingin mo ang mararamdaman ko
Ano bas a tingin mo ang tumatakbo sa isipan ko
Sana inaway mo na lang ako ng d ako nagaalala ng ganto
Sana sinabi mo na lang na busy ka
Sana sinabi mo na lang na may pupuntahan ka pang iba
Kesa namamatay na ko sa kakaalala syo
Sumagot ka naman ng telepono!!!
to claim today has been terrible would be an utter understatement. pair that with my growing dismay towards my recent (unconscious) choice to be all elderly and shit and you get a really angsty ryan on a random tuesday.
i hate hearing my jaded self in action. like it's one thing to lie in my bed and start thinking about all the old-person things i've been drowning myself in. it's another to start telling people about how they should start drowning in their pools of misery too. it is true, after all, that misery loves company.
so today, i totally did a complete verbal diarrhea on how i think the world connives to work against your baseless assumptions. how the world blindsides people's wishful thinking. how everything you are secretly hoping for and the little things you base these hopes on are just complete misconceptions. so much for optimism right? again. it wasn't a good day. but point of the matter is, i have robbed myself of youth. the oh so glorious luxury of youth. that bright sun-shiny feeling of wondering about the what-could-be's and the endless wishful nothings. that perspective of coming into a situation with nothing but a handful of unsubstantiated hope and feeling as though it was all you needed to get through things; because at the end of the day, feeling what it felt like was all worth it. regardless of what came out of it.
yes, i have been robbed of youth. i have robbed me of youth.
it has been my theme for the past couple of weeks. i recently found out that i don't enjoy the same things as much. that i somehow have outgrown them. like i woke up one morning and the same things don't appeal to me as much as they used to. how everyone else seems to enjoy the things i used to enjoy just fine. and i, standing a few paces back, looking at people bathing themselves in what used to be my own brand of happiness. and yet i remain standing. watching. unenjoying. totally unyouthful.
fast forward to today when ghosts of flirt-fest past resurfaced. of course, ramblings of a jaded twenty-four year old started pouring out like fuck. and it was a ghastly sight to see, watching all those calloused words get thrown on the table like there was more where they came from ('cos there probably still are?). pathetic. it was almost a perfect combination for a horrible evening of lambasting anything that even remotely resembled hope. i'm coming from a couple weeks' worth of uneasy feelings of being old and then get hit with stories from the grapevine. recipe for a mental breakdown, if you ask me. youthful mental breakdown, that is.
i have got to snap out of this. i sound like a thirty-something when i should be out there carelessly making mistakes. jumping at risks. killing time like a fucking menace. so much for spontaneity and free-spiritedness. three years of trying to be out there and i'm already calling it quits. as if i've gone through everything one can ever go through. what an ignoramus. and yet here i am, ranting half past three in the morning.
i need to sound like i'm twenty four. i need to.